Hey all!!

Now, I need to clear some stuff up. Okay!! I am going to prom I have found a date!!! I am so happy. I am also planning to not go to Argentina. Sorry Melissa!! It's a lot of money and well if I work this summer I need that money to go towards college. Hopefully, I am able to go to Bethany college in the fall! Ummm.... Life is complicated within my family and I know things will eventually get put back together. Lately, I have been just having a good time with friends, cause this school year is almost at an end,and most of my friends will be leaving for the summer and then college. So, I have to make as many memories as possible. Okay, well I am going to go, cause I have to fill out a little bit moreof a job application!!

TTYAL (talk to you all later)

*Anna*

P.S: I had fun at the movies last night with Melissa we saw Ella Enchanted and there was only like 4 people in the theater. Plus, this cute guy that worked at the theather kept staring at us!!

Hey all!!

I am back to update and let's just say I have been rather busy. I am going o Argentina this summer so I have kinda been looking for a job to finance the trip. I have decided that I am not going to prom, cause the one guy that I wanted to go with is going with my friend. Doesn't look like it matters to anyone, so it doesn't matter to me. Oh, and yesterday was wonderful cause i went prom shopping. Hahaha!! It was so fun!! NOT!!! I hate trying on stuff, just cause my friends are trying on stuff. Anyways, what else has been going? Ummm... Let's see. Oh melissa spent the night at my house, and we had mucho fun, and I am just really busy with school and stuff. Now, i have to go

*Anna*

Hey all!

Aren't I just wonderful at updating my journal?!!? Not!! Well, this whole past week has been spring break and its been really cool. I think that last night topped it all though!! I went to see Novice at the Santa Clara teen center, for the first time. I went with my friend Bianca and we had such a good time, that it was so unbelieveable. So, I met all the guys in the band who are really sweet and cute and I got to see them perform and they were unbelieveable. Oh, plus I saw my friend Dan's band "The Turnaround" perform and they were unbelieveable as well. So, after the show we went to go and get dinner and we had a mini-food fight which was fun and we saw people get arrested across the way. It was such a great night, and I didn't get home till about 12:30am. So, yea that was sooooooo much fun!! I want to give a quick shoutout to Bianca cause I love her so much, and she really helped me through a rough time last night. Plus,a shout out to Dan: hey, boy when I call you stop being busy!!! and to the guys in Novice: oh man, oh man!! When, you guys become famous don't forget me!! Rememeber Josh, Bianca and I are your rodies.

That's all for now peeps!!

*Anna*

Hey all!!!

It's been a long time since I have update my journal!! Well, last time I wrote I told you all about Bethany's open house day. Well, I had such a great time, that I have applied to Bethany College, and have been really busy with applications and stuff. Plus, I was in a dance performance called "Steps" at Lincoln and it took up most of my time. It was a hectic show, and let's just say being in a locker room with 370 girls is not fun!! Well, I am not going to be updating regularly cause my dad passworded the internet, cause of my sis,so ya. Just want to wish you all a Happy Easter and I hope that I get to see all my friends during spring break. Oh,plus that guy from church, I am over him!!!

*Anna*

Hey all!!

Today, was a regular day, and I am in a crappy mood. I really am looking forward to school ending, but I am not sure if i am looking forward to the future. I really want to go to Bethany college, but I am having second thoughts. I mean everyone has everything going for them, am I only applying to Bethany so I am not left here all alone? I mean come on I have had to face reality sooner or later, and reality is that I am not a good student. I mean I screwed up my whole highschool career, I have screwed up my future. My parents were right all along, and I wish I had listen to them. All, I cared about is how can I piss my parents off to get attention. Now, that everything is going right in my family, I feel like I am going to do something to screw it up. I try to be strong in my faith for other people, but I can't even be strong for myself. I strive each day to be a better person, but the day all ways consists of me forgetting about striving for my goal. If I could take away all the pain that I have caused people, and I have caused myself I would. People think that my life seems so perfect, and that I am happy every minute of the day. Reality is I am not!! I can't stands myself or anything about me. Thats the truth, I am not worthy of anything or anyone. You can all tell me that what I am saying is a lie, but its not!!

I am going to go!!

*Anna*

P.S. To the guy that means the world to me: Why can't you realize that you mean everything to me? Huh!! Is it that hard to grasp? I mean come on!! I care about you with every ounce of my heart, and you can't see it. Here is a song that reminds me of you and how I feel:

As years go by I race the clock with u

But if u died right now u know that Id die too Id die too

u remind me of the times when I knew who I was

still the second hand will catch us Like it always does

 We make the same mistakes I take the fall for u

I hope you need this now Cause I know I still do

Until the day I die Ill spill my heart for u Until the day I die Ill spill my heart for u

Should I bite my tongue till blood soaks my shirt? We never fall apart

Tell me why these words so much? 

My hands around ur throat and I think I hate u

Still they say we never win

Just like we always do Id spill my heart for u

My hands around ur throat and I think I hate u

We made the same mistakes just like friends do